Pandora's Box - The Human Mind...

i woke up this morning... a strange feeling, something which i am not accustomed to.. something which makes me feel uneasy yet compelling enough to make me believe that what if this strange new feeling that i have, that i feel this moment, is true.. what if the thoughts which are driving me wild and crazy now, this very instant are things and feelings which have been buttoned up, locked and thrown into the deep dark ocean of my mind, and my mind being the labyrinth, never let me open the pandora's box... but now i feel as if this lost box has not only been found, but somehow it has been mysteriously unlocked.. and this sudden gush of thoughts and events, which currently flood my mind are somehow linked and related to me.. its as if the "ME (my notorious yet self-conscious MIND)" has been shielding off "ME (the real and true ME)" from both itself and myself. but now i see it.. now i see things things which i never saw before.. truth about ME.. truth which i thought (or atleast convinced myself into believing) that it was a figment of my imagination... But now, i am confused.. i am confused about everything.. my thoughts, i dont seem to have any control over them.. more than control, i now seem to fail in comprehending them.. My thoughts, if ever there was something that i could say or rather claim to be my and solely my own, are beyond my comprehension..

suddenly, after successfully and miraculously living 23 yrs of my wretched life, i wake up on my 24th birthday morning, only to realize that all these so called 23 yrs that  i claimed to have successfully lived was nothing but a figment of my imagination.. the people i knew, the friends i had, the woman i loved, the work i did, the whole world around me including me, was all one big lie.. a misrepresentation of the truth and facts.. a total alternate reality.. something which was miraculously shelved in the sub-consciousness of the human mind.. shielding both the mind and the body from causing harm to both itself and to others..

but then, reasons apart, what is this feeling.. this feeling as if i have woken up from a state of unconsciousness after ages.. as if i was hibernating all these years when the world around me has been somehow mysteriously evolving in its own crude and random way.. everything i see around me feels so familiar yet everything is so complex.. something that my under-developed human mind is neither able to decipher nor comprehend, let alone understand its purpose or usage.. my bones feel brittle, my muscles weak, my breath elated, my vision blurred and distant, my hearing impaired, my limbs numb, my thoughts blocked, my senses sullied and over powered and the cause for all the above physical as well as psychological phenomena was just one thing, the strange feeling that i woke up to this morning. my conscious was deliberately trying to prevent my human self-conscious mind, from driving itself insane. and then i hear a noise.. something or someone was screaming to me.. oh no wait, its not something or someone.. cause there is no one out there, except for me.. then, what is this noise.. the noise now becomes distinct and clear and i recognize it... its my voice.. its me talking to myself.. in my head.. and it said to me "All that u ever knew existed, loved, cared, dreamt, wished for was nothing more than a mere hallucination.. " and then i realized that my life so far, has been one big prolonged hallucination.. with this thought i looked out of my window, only to realize that the world around me had truly evolved, in ways that i hadnt even imagined.. what would you do, if one day u wake up to realize everything that above had come true..